october

10 - 7: post-september malaise tuesday
listening	TMG 'Goths', favorite song 'Rain in Soho' OTGW soundtrack (see 'watching' section), also the 'for Sara' tape from the show that they released as a physical object at some point, it's cute. I wish they hadn't added so much noise to make it seem 'authentic'
reading	finished Evil as Humans. I liked it! it was charming! still reading "On Repentance and Repair" by Rabbi Danya Ruttenberg even tho the actual holidays have passed, will probably slowly continue to book club it through the fall read the OTGW art book like one chapter into "Blindsight" by Greg Egan (thank you pngjpeg for the rec), I love the style so far but it's too early to tell anything else really
watching	rewatched OTGW so that boyfriend could see it for the first time. 'tis the season, and he hadn't watched it before. I always get so emotional at the end lol. something something feeling seen as an anxious older sibling.
playing	continuing to get better at mtg cube draft starting playing Hades again to remind myself of the vibes, I think my brother is getting me Hades II as a birthday present :3 more disco elysium. I have officially hit the church. Egg Head is so fucking funny also
making	some of the best mug handles I have ever done. three wheel mugs and one kind of crooked slab built. plan is for the slab built one to be a graduation gift for a friend who is moving at the end of the month, going to paint a little saint bernard face on it :) friend gave me some of her leftover halloween decorations! I hung one up on my bookshelf and the other was just stack of wooden cat-shaped cutouts so I painted them black and gilded one with leftover copper leaf. my birthday is coming up! and I haven't watched Beetlejuice in years so I was like fuck it, themed movie watch party, especially because I have Mon-Tues off next week. so I spent an hour on a Tuesday making an invitation to text to people lol
eating	finally used what was left of bf's mom's kimchi to make kimchi fried rice. stir fried some cubed spam in there instead of bacon, 10/10 meal. made sheet pan miso chicken with radishes again, it's been a minute since this one came in rotation, but bone in skin on thighs were buy one get two free the other day and I was like. well. chicken time. gonna freeze like 8 thighs for future recipe-ing. served with the tiny type of couscous and fresh parsley.
misc	long time no post! it's been a little rough out here I won't lie! but we persevere! I was assigned Public Talk at the big conference at the end of the year and I'm already shitting myself about it a bit, not to mention that I STILL HAVE NOT DONE. MY PRELIMS. explodes. other grad students will know what I mean when I say that trying to get anyone on your committee to do Anything, including just Answering An Email, is like pulling fucking teeth.

10 - 14: birth week post
listening	fallow
reading	re-read it's about the bones more Blindsight! I'm about halfway through. it whips ass. I was expecting it to be kind of adventure/thriller-ish but it's definitely veering into horror in a way that's really fun.
watching	for a little pre-birthday shindig I had some friends over and we watched Beetlejuice (planned) and The Dead Don't Die (unplanned)! former remains the cult classic it ever was, I haven't rewatched it since I was a kid so some of the jokes that didn't land then sure do land now. I have zero interest in watching the reboot, especially since according to wikipedia they are planning a Third One. jesus christ. anyways. latter movie was...fine......definitely not one I will ever really rewatch. the fourth wall breakage at the end made me roll my eyes back into my skull. it was fine. Tilda Swinton is really sexy some mtg videos: Rhystic Studies The Molting House, There Are Skeletons Within Us, ; Vagabond Gallery The BODY HORROR of Phyrexia: All Will Be One
playing	I have put twenty hours into Hades II since Friday. really fun! did have to turn god mode back on! I am not good at video games! I'm doing this the same style as I did Hades OG which is I have my god mode file (I'm at...I think 66% damage resist now?) so that I can actually. progress the plot. and once I have a better handle on the vibes/controls/strats I will make a non-god mode save file. I have reached Chronos twice but not beat him yet, and have only barely made it past the first boss top-side. Images: my first Olympus win, funny little Hera v Zeus thing that I think was the source of many, many Greek myths: did a stone soup draft with some friends and I won't lie it was fun as fuck. not all of my group has their own cards, me included, so three of our six people brought 90 cards each. I had Six Chaos Orbs in my deck. it ruled.
making	bf glazed this teacup..laid on a little too thick so the bottom bubbled, probably not food safe, but it's cute regardless
eating	insane charcuterie board that my friend put together for my Beetlejuice watch party. sand worm shaped snax!!! for the party I also made mulled wine and these beetlejuice themed cookies! did not take pics of these unfortunately, but I just used normal cocoa powder instead of black cocoa powder and the stripes were still pretty good. if anyone has tips for what to do with all the wine-mulled oranges in my fridge let me know. maybe a marmalade?
misc	it is my birthday this week :-) I shan't say which day for the sake of infosec but I am oldger now

10 - 21: two weeker on socials
listening	bear with me this requires some explaining. so on Saturday afternoon I was like "man, I wonder how the local no kings protest went, I couldn't go, lemme check my city's subreddit to make sure nothing bad happened". I go on the subreddit. no news! yay. while I'm on there I see a flier for "free noise show at [local arts/community center] tonight, blindfolds provided". I go okayyy what. I tell my friend and she immediately is like I WANT TO GO ! so I was like fuck it, you're going, I'll go. I put together a cute little outfit. I'm walking over. I get a phone call from her. "I'm at the building but there's. a paranormal conference in here? I walked in and everyone looked at me and I'm high so I don't know what to do". I go "babygirl I am almost there, hold tight". turns out the ground level was hosting a random, like. local film guild meetup? but because it's october it was horror/paranormal themed, they had a psychic and a ghost hunter with a table chatting and a guy with a theremin ??? and the noise show was in the basement. so between sets we did go upstairs to chat with theremin guy and take a random ... DVD? CD? from the paranormal guy's table. I don't have anything to play it with but I am so curious what's on it. anyways I had never been to a noise show before but I did enjoy it. the first act was very "random instruments playing random notes and a guy screaming into a microphone at random intervals" which was fine, but I liked the other three a lot. very sound-bath, meditative almost. my friend called said it was like "flossing your teeth but for your brain" and I was like yeah sure. anyways I will not link or list any of the artists because it is so hyperlocal as to immediately doxx me but if you're curious DM me :]
reading	finished Blindsight! it was good as fuck. you can read it here for free actually, yay creative commons. there was a very good reveal at the end, I enjoyed the cast of characters, the plot was very cool. enjoyed.
watching	Rhystic Studies Summer of the Gaak; played a halloween themed cube and my friend got a Gaak combo going and we sure did all get Gaak'd on
playing	I FINALLY BEAT CHRONOS' BITCH ASS. images: first Chronos win, funny dialogue that can happen if you do your keepsakes/healing/etc before talking to Chronos between Erebus and Oceanus, Chronos commenting on how I have the timer enabled in my UI lol I also made it up Olympus again yippee. this time I ran into Dionysus and I loveeee his party cave. I took the bonus that also hides what your health is so that was kind of funny to do with the final boss fight where the damage bar is also absent. total vibes based combat as mentioned in watching, played a halloween themed cube! basically if it was werewolf/zombie/skellie themed, it was in there. super fun, I ended up with a weird little mill-myself-to-death-to-win engine with zombies and Jace which did not fare super well but was still enjoyable
making	starting the attempt at making a sake container for my mom as a holiday present to match the sake cups I made her last year! this is challenging! my internet history looks insane, lots of googling "choking and collaring tips" -> "choking and collaring tips pottery". so far I have two kind of cute little vases and one fucked up one that will probably go in the reclaim bucket. I also have some cute latte mugs in the work, I don't have a pic of the trimmed one I've done so far but it's cute. the vases will end up holiday presents for other people most likely so many fucking plots for work. not much else I've been in the Hades Hole
eating	had some milk go sour so I made ricotta/farmers cheese and then Ricotta Pasta with Beef! not bad. I am curious how it will freeze.
misc	we are approaching one month without having any word or feedback from my actual advisor. just her husband. ok